Tuesday, July 10, 2007
7:03 PM
i am having a sudden bout of emoism...and i don't know why. hmm. i'm not like.. depressed or anything. kinda just like.. thinking about past things. like why things have evolved into the way that they are today.
not that i'm complaining how things are at the moment.
i've found my old friends again and things are the way they were supposed to be back in secondary three. but somehow, a part of me wants to return to secondary three.
going shopping with friends. taking neoprints like mad. not a care in the world. it's like... we had nothing to worry about. no problems. just being our stupid crazy happy selves (with hidden feelings and whatnot.) but... it was fun. i was happy.
well. i AM happy.. just not AS.
and even though the neoprint phase has passed, looking at the chunks of neoprints i have, makes me want to go and take a whole carton of neos. provided i have the money... *mumblesgrumbles*
i wanna go back to secondary three. i know it's not possible. but i guess, to relive just one day of the past would make me happy enough.
things have changed from last time. they've changed SO drastically. alot of us are already past the arguing-and-making-up stage. the gossip-about-the-most-ridiculous-things time. the 'ohmygosh-he-likes-her/she-likes-him' era. the backstab-each-other-then-still-be-friends time. the groupsplitting, pangsehing days.
people have become friends, argued, broken up, found newfriends, argued, broken up, and the cycle goes on. i dno... it feels like i'm a whole different person yet exactly the same.
i haven't really changed... for the worse/better.. right.
i guess i just want to lie to myself all over again. i don't care what happened in the past, i just really really want to go back to it. it sucks that way and makes no sense but that's what my mind is doing right now...
making no sense..
GAHHHHHH.
FRIG.
anyways. i'm suddenly having urges.
the urge to take neoprints
the urge to go shopping
the urge to buy miniskirts (the straightkind)
the urge to wear miniskirts (OMGWTF)
the urge to buy a bag
the urge to buy converse shoes
the urge to play netball
the urge to play volleyball
the urge to play basketball
the urge to buy tees
the urge to dress up (DON'T ASK ME WHY. I DON'T KNOW WHY THE HELL WHY -_-)
the urge to be someone i'm not
the urge to watch a movie (hmm.. must be hp's fault..)
the urge to buy flats
the urge to be someone i'm not (did i already say that?)
the urge to.... have less urges.
RAH. shmite me oh mighty shmiter.. (this is psyco babble. wah wah wah.)
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.